You know what it used to be like? I cared a whole lot about what everybody has to say. Reputation, public image – we even used a lot of terms for it. In fact, all I wanted was to look like the poster girl at the imported university brochures. Nice teeth, crisp clothes and great shoes. Like she had it all figured out. Which is why when there is an important life event, I would say that we can’t afford to fail. Looking back though, it’s not just life events, it was everything… everything was such a big deal. It’s always the “big break”, the “this is it” moment, the “now or never” moment, the “adventure of a lifetime” and I could go on and on and never run out of things to call them. Despite all the sleepless nights panicking about all the potential mishaps for those events, failures did happen. But the world didn’t end.
Funny that we only learn to take life less seriously as we get older. I’m sitting in this room with clothes strewn atop the bed, bags and books scattered on this little table and I fully accept this testament to clumsiness. I can wake up and not go manic spring cleaning. Seen much less of social media for a year and I did not feel any less connected with the people who matter, except that it took me a while to know what #ootd and #tbt meant (seriously!). It just didn’t matter anymore. Family knows where you are. Real friends text, email or just find you anyway. You bump into special people all the time, even without Facebook. And the really special ones? They’re always around.
Since I’m on the topic of the lighter side of life, my metaphorical lone boat sailing in the ocean suddenly becomes a laughable thing. But I’m keeping it. 🙂 At 27, I’m still the chronic overthinker who likes writing lengthy self-gratifying gibberish littered with majestic figures of speech, long dragging sentences and unsolicited opinions about life.
That said, I’ll be riding the coming waves on a positive note.